only part of the problem

it came to us as a revelation -- but more likely we've just been in denial. we are a timewaster. a terrible habitual timewaster. we are so very good at it, the problem goes way beyond simple garden-variety laziness. this is malicious intentional self-sabotage.

we are aware that there is nothing like the good feeling that comes from an honest day's work, yet here we are, once again wasting time. accomplishing nothing that we can show for today, yesterday, saturday, friday... but we do this without the free-wheeling refreshing abandon that laziness would imply. in fact, we are hardly relaxed, instead, wasting time in a stressed sort of way. brilliant. and then stressing even more later, when time's up.